Why can't I just win the lottery?!

If it's not one thing, it's always another. Our list of need to replace items is getting longer and longer. A washer and dryer have been up there for a few weeks now. Now we can add a dishwasher, refridgerator, and computer. The holidays have hurt our pockets big time shortly after my maternity leave. We have some major catching up to do and have been working our butts off to get there. It's just frustrating when we start working towards one thing and then something else comes along with it. Overtime is forbidden at my job. David's job offers it about once a month, if that. We've cut back on things and started budgeting big time. We are determined to get back on track like we were before Lincoln arrived. It's just going to take some time, patience, and hard work!

Can I handle all of this??

So, we continue to fight our battle with thrush (oral yeast infection), since Lincoln was 5 days old (he's now 4 weeks). Lincoln has been taking Nystatin for almost 4 weeks now. It was almost completely gone, just 3 little spots left, and now it's back full force. I'm also being treated with Nystatin since I'm breastfeeding. We've been sterilizing everything DAILY, washing EVERYTHING after one use, practicing careful hand hygiene, and I just started an acidophilus supplement. It is beyond frustrating. The nursing has been feeling so much better for me and hasn't seemed to affect Lincoln at all. We just bought all new pacifiers. I feel so bad for the poor little guy. He doesn't appear to be in any discomfort, but is definitely annoyed with taking the medication. So basically, breastfeeding has been a major pain in the ass. By the time I feed him (half of an hour), change/burp him (10 minutes), and then medicate himself and me (20 minutes- I have to clean and air dry my breasts, along with medicating) it takes a good hour-hour and a half for every single feeding. I get about 45 minutes-1 hour of "free" time between feedings. The night time feedings are tough. Since everything takes so much time, I have gotten a second wind of energy by the time I finally get Lincoln back to sleep. None the less, I'm exhausted!
On top of all of this, I'm struggling to fit the needs of the other 2 kids in, along with housework, and time for David. I feel overwhelmed and guilty. I don't want David, lily, or Logan to feel left out. I want to make time for everyone and everything. I'm hoping that it will all become easier with time, esp. after the thrush is healed and not taking up so much of my time. There are so many things that I want to get done around the house before going back to work in October, I hope I can find time for it.
As tough as it's been time wise, I LOVE it. I love being the Mommy to 3 precious little lives. They are amazing, precious, loveable kids. I wouldn't change any of it for the world, except i would love to be a stay at home mom :)
David's been working full time and trying his best to help, but it never seems like enough to me because I'm so overwhelmed. I feel so guilty for nagging him. He tries, he really does. I'm a perfectionist and a little OCD. David is the complete opposite, he's laid back and relaxed about EVERYTHING. There's also not much he can do when it comes to the thrush and breastfeeding, which have been the most frustrating!!
We'll see what time and practice bring!!!

Major Update!!

David and I bought our first house back in February '10. It's needed a lot of work and is our everyday project, but we love it. We're doing remodeling, renovations, and making it "home." The house we purchased started off as a multi family unit and we converted it back into a single family home. We now have a 6 bedroom, 3 full bath house. It's huge compared to the last place we lived, a rented 3 bedroom, 2 full bath house.

We also just welcomed baby #3, Lincoln Matthew, into this world on July 22, 2010. He is great! He looks a lot like Logan, but is now starting to grow into his own look. He's such a calm and happy baby so far. He's still in that eat, sleeps, and poops phase. Lily and Logan always try to talk and play with him, but of course he shows no interest in them yet. The big brother and sister love him to pieces. Logan sometimes too much. He doesn't quite get it yet! We're all still slowly adjusting to having another family member.

Life is great now. David and I both continue to work full time, while trying to find time to spend with the kids and each other!! I'm on maternity leave until October and then I'm hoping to go back part time. We'll see how that works out. Our plans for now are to continue working on the house and loving these little joys in our life as much as we possibly can!!